recently...

Recently I have had this strange feeling. Actually since I have been home for break I have felt sad but in a different way. Not as in a deep swirling hole sad, but a more difference sadness. I feel sad that my life is moving me away from my family, and I never thought I would be one to be sad about that. My parents have stuff to do still don't get me wrong, but I know when I am home they want to spend a lot of time with me and this break I am counting the days I am able to spend with them and I am sad when it isn't the entire break pretty much. They are really good parents and let me do so much and never hold me back and it's really nice. I guess I never really understood that as I do now because I want to repay them for all they have done for me but I don't know how and what I would do. Also, I have been extra critical to my boyfriend lately and sometimes I wish I could be more calm. I mean granted he isn't perfect and could be a little more selfless sometimes, but he is a great guy and I am so lucky to have him. I just am realizing how lucky I am and it saddens me that I could ever really be sad about my life. So, with saying all of this, I just wanted to say that I am happy. I have a great life and even when it isn't perfect, it is still a lot better than at least half of this worlds, so I can't complain.