life

I just got done starring at my computer screen for 10 minutes reminiscing about my life. I started looking at pictures throughout my room and remembering the times associated with them and I started becoming nostalgic. I miss my dog. However wussy and lame he is I miss him. I miss my crazy coach who made me miserable half the time. I miss my childhood where everything was simple and nothing was uncertain, at least nothing that I knew of. One of the things I miss the most are my friends. I love everyone here, my teammates are great, and obviously I love my boyfriend (who I consider my old friend as well), but my old teammates were my sisters. Being an only child I literally considered them my sisters. Katie the most, but the twinkies and Mary Kay as well. I miss walking into the gym and gossiping about life and our weekends and talking behind everyone else's backs because we were the leaders of that gym. We owned it and everyone knew it. I miss that authority and respect. I miss the connection my coach and I had even though it was terribly messed up. I could do and say anything and I knew he would always be my coach and friend and nothing could ever change that. I miss my simple high school life with easy grades and no uncertainties about my future as to if I was going to do well in a class or make it all four years for gymnastics. I constantly worry that I am not going to make it to my senior year. I hate that worry it makes my mind crazy and I wish it would stop. I miss stupid family gatherings that I hated back then but kind of miss now. The ability to be in a room and have so many people wonder about my life and admire my hard work made me so happy and still does. As much as I love it here I love my home just as much however boring it may be.